I'll save you the time and define augury as a " sign of something coming, an omen." Or in other words: the post I have written and erased in my head a thousand times but will give a go since I have no knitting to share. Knitting? When did I let this blog become just about knitting? Probably around the time I decided to do nothing but knit. A microscopic virus put my knitting (and life) on hold this weekend and landed me in bed. Forced to my knees by a wee germ. It really needed to happen since I have no pause button. I go and go and go until I drop.
The auguries, the signs, which I allude to have been popping up for a few months now. Waiting patiently for me to be physically unable to ignore them by distracting myself with the day to day rituals. My nature is one of introspection as regular readers will have picked up on, but there has been an area of my life that I keep behind closed doors . I treat my spirituality like a sleeping baby that you love to stare at and wonder over, but are terrified to wake because it will cry out incessantly, demanding you nurture it. I am not talking about religion by the way. I am left more confused by dogma than comforted by it, so I leave others to decide that for themselves.
I am a deeply spiritual being. I am wrapped around the universe's finger. In love with it and all it offers. Just don't ask me to define God or compartmentalize my relationship with divinity. I have often called myself a "Heatherist". Clever, I know. Really my beliefs are such a Heinz 57 mix of all forms of devotion that no one philosophy would ever be able to come close to celebrating the unseen forces, the breath of life, the spirit, the pneuma that moves me and is me.
Lately those forces have been dropping me hints to shut up and listen to them and I am going to give it my best. I am going to lay my fear of faith aside this year and delve into the dusty closet behind door number three. I am going to shake myself up a bit and hope you don't mind hearing an insight or two along the way. I'll leave you with this nugget of wisdom and I promise I will have some knitting to show next time I see you.
In faith there is enough light for those who want to believe and enough shadows to blind those who don't. Blaise Pascal